Tight Spaces

Just when it seemed you were safe in my arms
I realize that you have had enough of me
There became a gap between
Your shadow and mine
That opened up
And the distance is growing
Tell me, did you fill in what went wrong
Or did you find that all along
There was a great divide
That couldn’t be crossed

Both of us
All at once
Opposite with no way of our own
leaving nothing in between

Tight Spaces
Filling up our lives
Cornering our hearts
Pulling us apart
No place to hide it anymore
And we have nowhere else to go

One room apartment and we both feel the walls are
Closing in, tension taints the air
Let the wrong word slip and should the delicate calm
Explode again, remember then
We have left ourselves with no option

Both of us
All at once
Opposite with no way of our own
leaving nothing in between

Tight Spaces
Filling up our lives
Cornering our hearts
Pulling us apart
No place to hide it anymore
And we have nowhere else to go

Tight Spaces fill up our lives
Tight Spaces pulling us apart
No Place To, No Place To,
Hide It, Hide It Anymore

Both of us
All at once
Opposite with no way of our own
Together alone
And caught in the middle

Tight Spaces
Filling up our lives
Cornering our hearts
Pulling us apart
No place to hide it anymore
And we have nowhere else to go

All of a sudden I face a calculation
where fifty percent
does not amount to half
and now all that we can gain
all that we can gain is settled
now all that I can do
all that i can do is laugh
and leave it behind

No idea what we’ve
signed on to
but we’re paying for it anyway
All these years and
never put to use
but we’re paying for it anyway
Given an out, forgiven a debt past due
but we’re paying for it anyway
Always closing in but never
paid off in full

Shown to the door
by official proclamation
A mere mention in passing
would have been enough
and the more that it will cost
the more that it will cost the better
when the moral of it all
the moral of it all is lost
Ain’t that fine
Ain’t that a fair way to settle up
yours from mine
Ain’t that all that I can gain,
all that I can leave behind

No idea what we’ve
signed on to
but we’re paying for it anyway
All these years and
never put to use
but we’re paying for it anyway
Given an out, forgiven a debt past due
but we’re paying for it anyway
Always closing in but never
paid off in full

Ain’t that fine
Ain’t that a fair way to settle up
yours from mine
Ain’t that all that I can gain
all that I can leave behind

Countrymen
Honor their noble call
While living
Living outside the law
Guided tours of thievery
Right out in the open for
The world to see

Guardian
At the door from the start
Never left
Never lets down his guard
Try to breeze through, try to pass
And hear wait for your time,
Wait until your chance!

Wait up, wait out, wait on!

Guarding the open door
Deciding who stays back and who can go
Guarding a future you can’t grasp until it’s past
Guardian standing in your path
Guarding the open door
Until your time

Citizens
In and out of control
Sovereign
Over a free-for-all
Shouting match
And a waste of your time
Nothing new can be born
If the old guard never has to die

Wait up, wait out, wait on!

Guarding the open door
Deciding who stays back and who can go
Guarding a future you can’t grasp until it’s past
Guardian standing in your path
Guarding the open door
Until your time

And they say wait for your time
But never will the old guard die

Patterns emerge and
Wear down to thread
Patchwork of a life being lived
Only in my head

Heartbeats too early
Lifetimes too late
Split seconds that I almost held
Written off as fate

Calling one and all
Watch the spectacle

Close your eyes
And hide behind
A wealth of fantasy
Fall into a
Storyline you’ve
Made yourself believe
Watch your chance
Come close
Trail it as it goes
Once again revisited
By accident
A life in almosts

Better as fiction
Taking liberties
Paper over any pipe dream left
Just out of reach

Brand new life story
Way easier told
Further out even the worst mistakes
Become a footnote

Static existence
Fades in the distance

Close your eyes
And hide behind
A wealth of fantasy
Fall into a
Storyline you’ve
Made yourself believe
Watch your chance
Come close
Trail it as it goes
Once again revisited
By accident
A life in almosts

Once handed to me
Slipped out the palm
These are memories
I would treasure
If I had them at all

Solitary flight
Imaginary heights

Close your eyes
And hide behind
A wealth of fantasy
Fall into a
Storyline you’ve
Made yourself believe
Watch your chance
Come close
Trail it as it goes
Once again revisited
By accident
A life in almosts

Trusted face
Perfect way to hide
Hold the space
Let no one inside
Secret’s safe
Well concealed
We all believe the masquerade as real
We all believe your face

Quick to cast a shadow
When they hold you to the light
Comfortable in disguise
Through it all
No one ever sees
The you beneath

Set the bait
Lure them close to you
Deeper fake
Dangling the truth
No mistake
No reveal
We all believe the masquerade as real
We all believe your face

Always well prepared
For them to catch you in a lie
Always on
Always right
Through it all
No one ever sees
The you beneath

Never hesitation
When they look you in the eye
Covered up
In plain sight
Through it all
No one ever sees
The you beneath

An otherworldly chance encounter
The aftermath of honest mistakes
Led us to one another
Not an early moment too late
Many doses of magic
Many sweet things drew me to you
Most important of all…

Is your sanguine nature
Coloring the gray of the world
To a permanent stranger
Anywhere can turn into home

And now i can’t see life
Without the comforts of

Your mattress on the carpet
Sangria in the mid afternoon
And your delicate footsteps
Guided by the phase of the moon

And now i will not rest until
Until i understand
How all of this began
How at a moment’s notice
Life itself can flip
And land right in our hands
But the start of it all…

Is your sanguine nature
Coloring the gray of the world
To a permanent stranger
Anywhere can turn into home
Harmony with the senses
Union with rhythms of love
It’s your sanguine nature
Tender to the finishing touch

And now i will not rest
Until i can define
How much you mean to me
In every dimension
From all perspectives
And into eternity
But the point of it all

Is your sanguine nature
Coloring the gray of the world
To a permanent stranger
Anywhere can turn into home

And now i can’t see life
Without the comforts of
Your sanguine nature

Since you’ve been
Under the microscope
From the moment
When first your eyes
Opened wide
For all the world to see

It only make sense
That you should crave
Forward motion
That’s all your own
And you alone can
Choose where you’re going

Nothing to save now
Nothing to hold you back
From taking the big leap

Make your way
Baby sparrow
Past today
It’s your tomorrow
First you fall
But when you fly
Gone in the blink of an eye

I’ve been watching
As you have grown
From a hatchling
With tiny sized
Sleepy eyes
And feathers soft and fair

Always knew there
Would come a day
You’d go traveling
Towards the great
Cityscape
And vanish in the air

It’s not a goodbye, no
It’s only the natural next
Move for you to make

Make your way
Baby sparrow
Past today
It’s your tomorrow
First you fall
But when you fly
Gone in the blink of an eye

How they can sing
From a lavish cage
For a lifetime
While words devolve
And worlds dissolve
Is beyond all belief

Nothing to save now
Nothing to hold you back
From taking the big leap

Make your way
Baby sparrow
Past today
It’s your tomorrow
First you fall
But when you fly
Gone in the blink of an eye

Make no mistake
Every moment was planned
Every detail thought out
But still plenty went wrong
In such devilish ways
As if forces at play

Zebu’s taken hold over my psyche
It’s not me at all

And there won’t be a hideaway
To wait for the spell to break
When he’s taken hold
You have no control
Of the fault lines about to shake
The error you’re bound to make
Zebu’s taken hold
You have no control

Mark of the beast
Hanging over your door
Just inviting in more
And you, laughing it off
Will so soon see the day
Of your own reckoning

Anything can summon the Zebu now
Poses in your head as your oldest pal
Fuels your cynicism and sows your doubt
He’s inside us all

But you won’t find a hideaway
To wait for the spell to break
When its taken hold
You have no control
Of the fault lines about to shake
The error you’re bound to make
Zebu’s taken hold
You have no control

Just one thought can trigger insanity
Put us suckers out of our misery
Anyone can summon the Zebu now
He’s inside us all

And you won’t find a hideaway
To wait for the spell to break
When he taken hold
You can’t go back and you can’t go forward
You have no control
Of the fault lines about to shake
The error you’re bound to make
Zebu’s taken hold
You have no control

I go on about a stiffer upper lip
And the thickest of skin
But the minute that
You wander from my sight
I turn into stone
There’s no drug that could have
Been your medicine
When you’d first fallen ill
But not only did you
Fight off the effect
You did it alone

Freeze where you are
You can burn to the touch
And be shivering
At the same time

Cold fever
Running temperature
All over

You were pushing at the edge
To keep the pace
But you had to break down
I can’t throw the covers
Over the remains
Of what could’ve been
I gave warning and pleaded and did all i could
But by forces beyond my control
It happened again

I mean no harm
And I told you as much
But i know i won’t stay
On your mind

Cold fever
Running temperature
All over

Freeze where you are
You can burn to the touch
And be shivering
At the same time

I mean no harm
And I told you as much
But i know i won’t stay
On your mind

Running from the chances you’ve lost
Running like there’s nobody left
Running like there’s never enough
Running from the ghost of your self

Best behavior
Whispering shout
Attempts to curry favor
or hold to account
All so vivid
Hearts on display
Until we hit your limit
and turned you away

Three attempts
Three attempts
to win your faded heart
The one divides
Another hides
And third time we part

Mixed up potions
Bitter to taste
Designed to rouse emotions
or hold them at bay
Room still spinning
Days on repeat
I’ve known from the beginning
you’d land on your feet

Three attempts
Three attempts
to win your faded heart
The one divides
Another hides
And third time we part